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  She looked at the picture on the chimney breast and wondered, a little wistfully, if she would ever have the opportunity to see the colours of that glowing world with her own eyes. Harry had, and she knew her father had, but it had never occurred to the Earl to tell her about them—and now he was blind.

  Benoît reached over and picked up a letter from the desk. He offered it to her.

  ‘This is for your father,’ he prompted her, when she didn’t immediately take it.

  ‘What does it say?’ she asked, receiving it rather reluctantly and noticing that it was already sealed.

  ‘My lady!’ Benoît exclaimed. ‘Do you make a habit of enquiring into other people’s private correspondence?’

  ‘Papa will ask me to read it to him, I might as well know what it says now,’ Angelica replied, a dull note in her voice.

  Some of the brightness seemed to have gone out of the day. Ahead of her lay only a weary journey back to London, an unpleasant interview with her father explaining what she’d done—and then a long wait to find out if Harry really would be be rescued.

  ‘That’s his privilege,’ Benoît agreed, unperturbed. ‘He sent me a letter and I have replied directly to him. That’s my privilege. It might also make him feel less humiliated by the situation if he has the opportunity to break my seal himself.’

  ‘Yes, perhaps,’ Angelica replied almost inaudibly. She doubted if her father would appreciate Benoît’s tact. He loathed his dependence too much to be consoled by such courteous gestures.

  She weighed the letter in her hand, remembering her earlier doubts about Benoît. She found it almost inconceivable that he might be intending to betray Harry to the French—what good would it do him? The information that Harry wanted to escape was hardly going to be news to his captors. But she did wish he had given her firmer assurance about what he meant to do.

  She looked up and found that he was watching her, a half-smile, and perhaps a question, in his eyes.

  ‘You were right, sir,’ she said slowly, ‘it was a very tiring journey yesterday. It’s lucky the storm didn’t break earlier in the day. We had enough trouble jolting over the ruts and boggy places in the road as it was.’

  She went over to the front window, looking out at the driveway and the bobbing, yellow daffodils. There were one or two shallow puddles on the ground, reflecting the blue sky above.

  ‘I confess, I am a little daunted at the prospect of setting out again so soon,’ she said hesitantly, as if reluctant to admit a weakness.

  ‘Come now, Lady Angelica,’ Benoît said bracingly. ‘This doesn’t sound like you. What happened to being “equal to your responsibilities”? I’m sure you won’t let a little discomfort stand in the way of your duty. Besides, the Earl’s carriage is very well upholstered.’

  Angelica bit her lip. She disliked intensely the role she had created for herself, but she couldn’t think of any better excuse to stay at Holly House another day.

  ‘I’m sure the journey to London must seem infinitesimal to a man who has sailed halfway round the world,’ she said grittily, ‘but to me it is not so. I do not enjoy having to admit such foolish sensibility to a stranger, but the prospect of climbing into the coach again this morning fills me with horror.’

  ‘Now that I can believe,’ Benoît said appreciatively. ‘It’s always best, when telling lies, to stick as close to the truth as possible.’

  Angelica swung round indignantly, sparks in her blue eyes.

  ‘Were you planning to challenge me?’ he asked softly, before she could speak. ‘I warn you, my lady, I will pick up the gage.’

  He was standing beside the desk with the still vigour which characterised him, simultaneously relaxed yet alert. There was an intelligent, amused understanding in his brown eyes which was very disconcerting.

  Angelica hesitated, thinking better of what she’d been going to say. She knew she was on shaky ground. Her own nature would not allow her to play the part of a nervous, vapourish female, even if she wanted to do so; sooner or later she would betray herself.

  ‘Nevertheless, I would be grateful if you would allow me to intrude upon you another night,’ she said, as serenely as she could. ‘If the weather remains dry the roads will be in much better condition tomorrow. It will be easier for the horses.’

  ‘Of course, we must consider the horses,’ Benoît agreed smoothly, a gleam in his eye. ‘But how long will the Earl tolerate the absence of his daughter? I should hate to have Sir William come storming in here accusing me of kidnapping you. He might suspect me of trying to hold the Earl to ransom for your safe return.’

  Angelica gasped. Not once, in all the time she since had decided to deliver her father’s letter herself, had that possibility occurred to her.

  ‘You wouldn’t!’ she exclaimed, caught between indignation and disbelief.

  ‘I might, under certain circumstances,’ Benoît said reflectively, startling her even further. He smiled at her expression. ‘No, my lady, you’re quite safe with me,’ he assured her. ‘But I think we might send a message to your father that you’re still here. He must be more aware than most of the possibility of accidents on the road.’

  Angelica nodded, unable to argue with Benoît’s suggestion. For all his black moods, she knew the Earl was probably desperate with worry for her. It upset her that she was causing him so much distress. But it was an unbelievable relief to have escaped briefly from the dark, gloom-enshrouded house in Berkeley Square. One more day could not hurt.

  ‘I’ll tell my mother you are staying while you write a note to the Earl,’ said Benoît briskly. ‘Feel free to use the desk. We’ll send him my letter at the same time.’

  ‘Oh…’ Angelica wanted to protest, but she couldn’t think of an unexceptional way to resist his eminently reasonable suggestion.

  ‘You will have to curb your curiosity in that respect a while longer,’ said Benoît, with dry amusement, removing it neatly from between her fingers. ‘Excuse me, my lady.’

  He went out, leaving Angelica alone. She looked around, her eyes drawn once more to the brilliant painting over the fireplace. She was staying for Harry’s sake, she told herself. There was a great deal about Benoît Faulkener that still needed investigation before she could finally trust her brother’s life to him.

  But was there also something here for her? She spun the globe idly, and then noticed for the first time the model of a ship standing alone on its own table. It was beautifully made, with a well-polished hull, delicate spars and intricate rigging. She went over to it, hardly daring to touch it. It was resting on a wooden plinth, but the sails billowed as if it were scudding through the waves, free and unrestrained.

  For eighteen months the Earl had rarely left the familiarity of his own home. For the first time she wondered if he would be happier if they travelled; if he could feel the wind on his face even though he could no longer see it bending the trees? It had to be so.

  When Harry came home they would make Lord Ellewood emerge from his self-made prison. They would take him out so that he could sense the teeming world all around him, and they would make him start living again. Because if they didn’t, she could not bear to contemplate what the future would be like.

  She remembered suddenly that she was supposed to be writing him a note, and hurried back to the desk, half afraid that Benoît would be back before she had finished.

  Chapter Three

  ‘Well, my lady,’ said Benoît, when a messenger had been dispatched with two letters for the Earl, ‘how would you like to spend the day of repose you have won for yourself? In a comfortable chair by the fire—or perhaps you’d rather lie down for a few hours?’

  ‘You are very considerate, sir,’ Angelica replied coolly, trying not to let him provoke her, ‘but I think I could endure a little more activity than that. Perhaps you might permit me to look at some of the books in this well-stocked library.’

  Benoît inclined his head politely, an ironic gleam in his eyes.

  ‘Be my gue
st,’ he said graciously. ‘Are you very fond of reading, my lady? If you tell me your taste, I may be able to select just the thing for you.’

  ‘I have read a great deal to Papa,’ said Angelica.

  She wandered over to the nearest shelves, idly running her fingers along the leather spines of the books. Then she paused, her hand resting lightly on the edge of the shelf as she looked up at the rows and rows of books.

  ‘You haven’t read all these?’ she said suspiciously.

  ‘By no means,’ Benoît replied urbanely. ‘Most of them belonged to old Mr Fanshaw, the previous owner. He had very eclectic tastes, not all of which I share. But there are also my father’s medical books, and I have added others on subjects which interest me.’

  ‘The Great Discoverers—the New World?’ Angelica guessed, glancing at him for confirmation of her suggestion.

  ‘Among other things.’ Benoît watched, smiling slightly, as Angelica looked back at the shelves.

  Her dusky pink gown was more subdued than the blue she had worn the previous evening, but nothing could dim the vivid glory of her hair. Her full-breasted figure radiated energy and a barely contained zest for life. She didn’t belong in front of rows of dusty books.

  Then she sighed, clearly unaware that she had done so, and Benoît frowned, his eyes narrowing a trifle as he studied her.

  Angelica had just realised that she was sick of books and everything they stood for. There had been too many days and nights when she had read endlessly to her father from texts that she didn’t understand or that didn’t interest her.

  Books had become the only substitute for life the Earl was prepared to accept. He was more willing to listen to the words of long-dead philosophers than the voices of old, and once-valued, friends. Angelica turned abruptly away from the shelves.

  ‘On the other hand,’ said Benoît smoothly, before she could speak, ‘if you don’t feel too bruised from your journey yesterday, perhaps you might like to explore some of the surrounding countryside.’

  Angelica glanced at him, startled and not quite sure of his meaning.

  ‘I take it you do ride?’ he said, lifting an enquiring eyebrow.

  ‘Of course, but—’

  ‘Then since this is your first visit to this part of the country, I would be honoured to show you around,’ he offered politely.

  He spoke in the unexceptional tone of a good host doing his best to entertain a difficult guest, but there was an amused glint in his eyes as if he had read Angelica’s mind and knew exactly how she felt about a day spent in the library.

  ‘The scenery isn’t spectacular, but we’re quite close to the sea,’ he added encouragingly.

  ‘I know,’ Angelica replied dryly, wondering why he always managed to make her feel at a disadvantage.

  He grinned, unabashed at her implicit allusion to smuggling.

  ‘What do you say?’ he asked, the challenging light in his eyes almost daring her to decline his offer.

  She hesitated, meeting his gaze with fearless, lucid blue eyes. She already knew she was going to go riding with him—it would be far too craven-hearted to refuse his implicit challenge—but she couldn’t help wondering, briefly, about the propriety of his suggestion. She stifled her conscience with the thought that she was extremely unlikely to meet anyone she knew.

  Above all, the prospect of riding freely in the crisp open air was irresistible, and she was suddenly filled with exuberant anticipation. She smiled, her expression lighting up with unexpected radiance, her blue eyes almost dazzling with luminous excitement. She met his gaze without reservation, unaware of the impact her happiness might have on him.

  ‘I would be delighted, sir,’ she said eagerly. ‘Oh!’ Her face fell. ‘Unfortunately I didn’t foresee the need to bring a riding habit. I’m afraid…’

  Benoît had been watching her internal struggle to justify riding with him with an appreciative half-smile. But now he was gazing at her with an arrested expression in his eyes, almost as if he had been taken by surprise by something. He seemed to absorb her last, disappointed words with an effort, but then he responded with his customary competence.

  ‘I dare say my mother will be able to make good that deficiency,’ he said briskly, ringing the bell. ‘I will have a couple of horses saddled and we will set out as soon as you are ready, my lady.’

  Angelica had no time to reflect on the wisdom of her decision. Besides, she was too excited at the unexpected treat in store for her to worry overmuch about propriety. She dressed as quickly as she could in the old-fashioned riding habit Mrs Faulkener lent her, eager to get out of the house and anxious not to keep Benoît waiting.

  ‘Well, it’s not what I like to see you wearing, and it’s to be thanked that no one we know will see you in it, but it will do,’ said Martha grudgingly, although she was secretly pleased to see the renewed glow of life in Angelica’s eyes.

  Angelica’s preoccupation with her father’s problems—and her increasing anxiety about him—had worried Martha. But she had been unable to think of any advice which might help.

  ‘Oh, Martha, it’s fine!’ Angelica protested buoyantly, hastily checking her appearance in the mirror.

  The riding dress was charcoal grey, severely cut and very plain. It was a trifle too loose around her waist, and it fitted very snugly across her bust, but it was undoubtedly smart. The doctor’s wife had had style—still did have, Angelica reflected. There was nothing of the vulgar, provincial housewife about Mrs Faulkener.

  Angelica cast one more glance at the mirror and turned to leave the room, but at the last minute she paused. She picked up her reticule and took out the letter from James Corbett, slipping it safely into a concealed pocket in the capacious riding skirts. It was the most valuable thing she possessed, and somehow it seemed to bring her closer to Harry. Besides, if it came to an argument with Benoît about how he was going to rescue her brother, she wanted to have all the facts at her fingertips.

  It was wonderful to be outside in the fresh air. There wasn’t much warmth in the March sunshine, but the sky was still a clear blue. The damp cobblestones in the stableyard glistened in the bright morning light and the horses were glossy and sleek. Angelica hadn’t been riding for a long time, and she could hardly contain a thrill of anticipation at the prospect ahead of her.

  ‘It’s a beautiful day!’ she exclaimed, almost dancing in her sudden light-heartedness.

  ‘I can’t argue with that,’ said Benoît more sedately, but smiling at the vivid picture she made in the sunlight. ‘This is Billy,’ he added, rubbing the silky nose of a neat bay gelding. ‘My mother named him. She said she perceived a resemblance to Sir William in his countenance.’

  ‘Oh, no!’ Angelica protested instinctively. ‘I mean…’

  The bay turned its head at the sound of her voice, flicking his ears disapprovingly. Then he struck the cobblestones a couple of times with an impatient forefoot and pulled against the groom’s restraining hand.

  Angelica laughed. ‘I think I can see what she means,’ she confessed.

  The groom grinned and spoke chidingly to the horse.

  ‘And this is Dorcas,’ said Benoît, patting the shoulder of a quiet chestnut. ‘She’s my mother’s mare. Allow me to put you up, my lady.’

  He was standing right beside her, and she was suddenly deeply conscious of his nearness. Her heart began to beat faster and she knew she was blushing.

  ‘Thank you,’ she said in a muffled voice.

  She was grateful that her face was turned away from him, and that she could blame any colour in her cheeks on the exertion of mounting.

  He tossed her up with an easy, confident strength which landed her securely in the saddle. He stepped back and watched as she gathered up the reins. She was very aware that she was under observation and tried to compose herself, as well as her mount.

  She told herself fiercely that she mustn’t allow her natural excitement at this welcome moment of freedom to blind her to the more serious issues at s
take. And she certainly mustn’t let Benoît Faulkener use his undoubted charm and quick wits to put her at a disadvantage.

  Despite that, she had to resist the urge to fidget under his gaze, and she knew she was blushing even more rosily than before. She was unbelievably relieved when at last he nodded, as if satisfied, and swung himself up onto the bay.

  ‘Thank you, Thomas,’ he said.

  The groom stepped back and watched them ride out of the stableyard.

  Angelica was suddenly aware that she was going to be quite alone with Benoît. In the past a groom had always accompanied her whenever she went riding, but Benoît had apparently given no thought to the matter.

  She wondered for a brief, almost panic-stricken moment whether she should insist that her coachman accompany them. In the circumstances it would be a perfectly reasonable request, but she decided against it almost immediately. Benoît might do his best to disconcert her, but she had no real fear that he might molest her—and it would be easier to find out more about him if no one else was within earshot.

  She glanced at him surreptitiously. He was sitting erect yet relaxed in the saddle, holding the reins in one hand, his other hand resting lightly on his lean, well-muscled thigh. He hadn’t troubled to wear a hat, and his raven hair glinted in the winter sunlight. He was gazing south over the water meadows, his deep set eyes resting on the horizon, momentarily forgetful of her presence.

  She could easily imagine him on the deck of his ship, looking out across the sea-swell. Her heart stirred within her at the picture she had conjured up, and she realised in stunned disbelief that she felt sad that it was a sight she would never see in real life.

  ‘What is your respectable business?’ she asked abruptly, trying to banish the disturbing vision.

  Her question recalled his attention to her, and he flicked a quick look in her direction. There was a humorous gleam in his brown eyes, and a tantalising smile played on his lips.